Monday, August 10
Tuesday, August 11
Very sad, dark, alone days. Usually hit this point somewhere in my summer. Just as June insanity hits at school every year and we are shocked and surprised, even though we know it's coming....mid August hits here and knocks me to my knees, shocked and surprised. After spending the entire summer meeting everyone's needs, I realize that the needs of my marriage have not been met in any way, shape, or form and I am devastated and jealous of everyone around me enjoying a fun life with their spouse or mate. It eats me from the inside until I am a miserable, hormonal mess who hates everyone around me even though it is no one's fault. I do eventually come out of it...and just come to accept what I've got...and realize that it's the same as I've always had...I just don't usually have as much time to feel it.